Ive seen Sleep a million times before.. but its never looked as Good as it does tonight

I have watched “her” sleep a million times before…

The silence of the room filling my ears like the beating Drum of a one man Marching Band…

I can almost stare into the dark filled walls and see my imagination and Dreams playing before me like the ultimate Shadow puppet Show..

Her warm body laying next to me… Watching Her in the moments that are more personal then life itself.

Following the traces of her Face with my finger tips… Exploring the Unknown that i have only imagined time and time before..

For what seems like a life time…

I have waited for this moment… and I can hardly contain myself from bringing her back to life… out of her sleep.. and into my dreams.

Seeing her Laying in my arms… as the night progresses slowly into a perfected masterpiece of rest and victory.

She’s Resting her head.. and It looks almost natural… like an Angel sleeping in the clouds while taking a break from the day…

I let my eyes gently love her body up and down…. seeing each little detail of her body in ways that I have only imagined to myself on the most lonely nights i have ever lived…

This was the moment I have Dreamed about… A life time that i have spent searching and enduring one bad choice after the other.

Now the time as come.. My day has Finally arrived and I will never have to Look back..

It takes effort to Even recall anything and everything that has come before this moment..

The silence thats piercing my ears while the random lights that sneak in through the window shades entertain my imagination with silhouettes of a future where everything is perfect and everything is her.

Slowly feeling her effortless breath leaving her mouth and cascading down my shoulders.

Watching her eyes Slowly twitch in the moments of Deep sleep… Leaving me only to think that maybe just maybe in her dreams i am there.. and she has nothing to fear… nothing to worry about… Nothing to ever wonder about..

Her Perfected body is the only thing that keeps me from Drifting off into a deep sleep.. its there… and my hands will not allow me to stop for a second… even if that means I will lose sleep tonight… it means that i will close my eyes the happiest man alive tonight.

Sometimes I get so close to her.. that She almost wakes up… Sometimes its just enough to the point where her eyes are still closed… but her arms automatically find me… and wrap them selfs around me..

This is what they meant the first time i heard the words “love”, This is what They meant the first time I saw a happy ending in a fairy Tale..

This surely must be what they meant when I first heard about true Happiness…

Seeing her legs wrapped around the sheets and the pillows… There is nothing more that I can do other then stare… Its Perfect Madness… Its perfected Harmony and its Where I need and want to be.

Sleep well My angel, For your wings have not been denied… not tonight… Not today.. not in this life.. and not ever again

I have no Patience when it comes to Waiting for the next day to start… I have so much that I need to say.. So much that i have discovered while in these thoughts that i through all around you while you slept last night…

I am never in a rush when it comes to finding the Perfect words… but I just wish someone would hurry up and invent new ones that will finally enable me to explain to you just how much I love you.

Even if you have… Even if you need… I don’t mean to stare… We just have to Breath… We can Build a house…We can build a tree… I don’t even care… We Could just be free….

Tonight I’m the Richest man Alive

Living A Dream while wide awake… The priceless Award of The heart

Watching as the time Comes screaming down our throats….

Finding that everything is more perfected then we could have ever imagined…

Her Soft Skin Compliments The Very Thoughts that my mind effortlessly creates Words for with my lips..

Her Hands are shaped in such a way that it would be Easy to argue that they were made for me…

The fear that you have… The things that you wonder…. and the times that you wish You could have spent else where….

These are the things that will give me the reasons to prove my love each and every moment that I spent with you.

A romantic bliss paradise that is Created by us…. For us…. Through us…. and it will never end till my last breath of life is inhaled..

Watching the reflection of my self in her eyes… its priceless… its Perfected… its what the real meaning of pure love and affection comes from…

There is nothing more that is needed to fall in love with you each night all over again then the simple glance of your electric eyes… and the warming Touch of your lips against My body…

Like the Wild fires that Rush through the untamed forests of life… You are the brightest flame in the most Coldest place on this earth… With you nothing fails to keep me warm at night and every moment that i feel my self freezing.

As I take your hand and help you gently glide into a world that is unknown.. Just always keep in mind my Angel that you have nothing to fear… as your wings have not been Denied…

powerful…Sexy….beautiful and the most perfect master piece of Art work that I have ever seen..

My Strong hands gliding over your body like the gentle perfected touch of an Artist… Feeling every curve and twist of your body…. and never failing to miss a single spot.

Is this love? is this love? Is this love that I’m feeling?

Love reaches the limits it can… and a new word needs to be invented to understand the full potential of What my heart feels when We are combined as one… Lights off…. The Sparkle of the moonlight barely making it Through the Closed shutters….

the pale moon light running wild around us…. Slowly dripping down your body….. My hands chance away the darkness and your lips allow me to show you just how bright our world can be.

We’ve kissed in the rain…. We’ve watched the sun rise and hide from countless days… Each time i would see with my own eyes… Just how one could fall in love more and more with each passing day…

What is it that i see when i look into your eyes you ask me?

Have your ever seen the rain fall peacefully to earth?

A puddle gather up like the thoughts you have on the clearest days?

have you ever felt warmth on your body when the Coldness is all around you?

Have you sat back and watched the effortless flaps of a butterflys wings as it Takes flight and moves on to its next Adventure of life?

if you have… Then you have seen maybe a tiny portion of what my eyes see the moment they set their sites on you….

Its Magical… Its Perfected… And its the reason The word Romance and passion were invented….

Cupid called… He was very angry…. He claims to have used all his arrows on us…

I told him not be upset… to look at it as an investment…

because when all this is said and done…. We will be the prime example of just what love can be about and where it can bring you.

There is nothing in this world that I would Give to you… there is nothing in my world that will not be yours the moment it comes…

Take my hand…. take my whole life too..

but I can’t help falling in love with you.

The west is the best.. Get here… and we’ll do the rest…

Watching her legs Slowly Swing outside the car door..

in awe as I stare at the classy way she lands her feet on the floor…

In this moment She’s perfecting Everything that no longer matters in the day..

The Simple yet Much awaited greeting…. Like electricity surging through her eyes…

I could stare into them for a life time… They are fire… and I’m the candle which she sets a blaze…

Her Skin soft like the finest Silk ever touched by the hands of Mankind…

She fits perfect in my arms….She rests eye height with my heart…. She knows how to make Everything ok.. without even Trying…

I sat there waiting… Waiting to see her drive into My life… into My world…. and I would have waited a life time… but instead i feel like i have spent a life time with her already.

I find myself Entrapped in her Charm… Her charisma and her beauty…

There is no one else in my mind.. She has erased everything that had left a mark behind….

Time spins it self into a pattern of endless smiles and laughs….

There is no way that i want to say Goodbye to you… so instead we agree to “see you soon”

Soon can never come soon enough…There is a terrible thing that comes with love… and thats being a part from the very thing that holds me together… The very Thing that lets me see that all The past times I thought I was here….  i Was actually just training For the one time that it would matter… That one time is her….. That one time is now…

I can not Fail… I will not Take Second place… I will never Give up devoting each day of the rest of my life to proving that the Face Of beauty is right before me..

She will never go unnoticed…. She will never have to doubt… She will never have to ask her self why…. She will never have to be good enough… Because Perfection is The top tier of  Masterpiece Beauty.

Never will another wasted tear fall from your Face that i can only explain as Crafted in the heavens…. Never again will you Run dry from disappointment… Your tears will only fall at the command of joy…

The Rost of my heart…The queen of my Pulse….

The most amazing piece of art that i have ever graced my eyes with seeing…

Nothing will ever again be a road block in your journey of life…

I take from this and give back in ten folds…

Nothing can stop me now.. Cause I just don’t care to anymore…

And She’s buying a Stairway to Heaven

The Dim lights…. the First night…. Time was on our side… but i kept giving the Clock Dirty looks..

I made sure that everything was new…. The bed that we made…

Because for you it was all worth it… for you there is nothing that is too “much”…

The Endless ways in which your body would compliment the Soft new sheets…. Clean and ready to be Dirtied…

89 songs…. but yet it almost played in our minds like we were only blinking for a few minutes at a time…

I was lost and Wondering that night….. The local coffee shop was almost closing…. I almost turned away and headed back home… But There was more there.. there was a reason for everything… like with everything with us..

The feeling of being lost would no longer plague me…. as I ordered my cup of coffee i thought so many things… Maybe it was too late… Maybe i had missed you….

but in that moment… seeing her face Come around the corner… Not a single word… Just a single look… to light me on fire….

Playing house while blending in like the “norm”…..

Christmas gifts and ninja swords….. Water falls and funny t Shirts…

The truth is i could have been looking at paint dry… and I would have been Fine with that… as long as you were my company.

The Gentle and Perfected dinners that we shared…. it didn’t matter if i was hungry or not… The truth is that even chewing would have wasted time in my eyes that could be spent telling you just how beautiful you looked..

Laying on the edge of my bed…. Pssst psssst…… I didn’t care what the answer was , I just wanted to hear your voice…

The passion filled moments…. we stopped time…. we Finally did what mankind has always wanted to do…. We played with Time…. We laughed at the face of minutes… and wrapped our bodies around each other while making love…

She is what i have waited for… but the Waiting has started to laugh…. Cause there is never enough time to fulfill just how much when your trying to give Someone everything and every piece of yourself…

1.5 hours…. 1.5 hours…. it was ours…. we contributed our selfs to that 1.5 hours….

have you ever seen the face of a rising Sun covered in the morning hue…. Have you ever looked up into the sky and caught a Glimpse of that one star…. Have you ever Felt the rain coming down all around you as if your the Director or the most amazing and yet told Love story?

The radio is broken… it Refuses to play anything else… it keeps repeating every moment… Every memory…. as if god has gotten bored of paying attention to anything else…. and is now focusing on just it…

Take me home she says…. take her home he hears….. The tears soaking the ambers of a burning heart….

he’s got the keys… he’s got the map… He’s got the means…. But he just can’t do it.. not now….

Come on baby… Take a chance with us… Meet me at the back of the dream bus…

Come on Baby… Take a chance with us….. and Meet me at the birth of a new dust…

Take my hands and give them cleaning…. Lets Sharpen the knife that we will use to rip apart this world as we know it…

Now and then when I see her face… it takes me away to that special place… where if i stare too long… I will Probably break down and cry… not because of sadness… because two hearts that were meant to be…. Two soul mates…. Die alone when apart…

Don’t worry things will be just fine and perfected

At times you have to ask your self to look back on your life..

See the things that once were all and understand that change is inevitable, Its the formula of life… Its something that happens at times with little to no effort at all.

This is life’s natural process of Elimination, The filter set in place long before the dawn of time.

Take a look around in your world…. Try and see things as they really are…. we as humans are the most Easily fooled species…

The very moment that everything you know takes on a new face and you start to see the Real meaning of people… your surroundings and your Path in life.

Expect the unexpected to be the best things that have yet to come.

For me I like to think that Ive lived my life with the best feelings in my heart… I just needed to find the right place to apply them feelings…

Out of no where… It appears… Perfected Madness….

The most amazing beauty to ever have my eyes set on… All rules Rewritten… all conclusions made prior… all reset..

The joy of pure Happiness… The thought of a future where nothing can stop the smiles that are created just by presence…

The warm Touch of The bed that we made…. one that needs to be made each time she’s gone… Each time laying there awaiting the return of the queen of hearts…

adoring her every move…Scent…touch….glance…

Fire eyes that light the dark tunnel of Prior uncertainness..

How do you tell her? how do you explain in words a feeling that is more Extreme then the life in which you live… words that Form the Ever lasting bond from heart to Mind… From soul to lips…

You can get down on one knee… and that would only be 5% of the Unlimited amounts that you would like to show her…

You want to share a life… You want to create a world… You want to hold each moment as a priceless work of art…. She is the perfected Masterpiece that you have Spent your whole life trying to discover…

There it is…. Before your eyes…. Glancing through your eyes… Into your soul…. into the depths of your heart…

in that moment.. I know that I love her… In that moment I know that I would Submit myself to her in ways that only others have wished and Dreamed of…

The most beautiful Work of art… The best creation of god… The most priceless gift to ever be given to me…

I will not fail… I will not ever give up.. I will not ever stop telling her the ways in which my world is better because Of just her simple Smile..

All of it.. Is yours bella… and All of me is included.

My book is coming along

2015 for me has been instant creative ejaculation. Explosive creative energy at every thought. Every action. Every emotion.

My book is moving along at such a pace that now completing it this year seems so realistic that it becomes a drive on its own.

A life long dream to be a writer. Though I have been writing my whole life.

It is only now that I place an official stamp or label or whatever you want to call it. Putting not only myself out there but testing my “talent”.

Only two options

Do and get done.

As I let my mind flow through my finger tips as I walk down the ultimate journey of memory lane. I stop and think of all the people I have met. All the friends I’ve made, I’ve lost and I’ve forgotten.

I think about the adventures. The success , the uphill climbs and the fast down hill falls.

I think about each person that fills the pages of my book. The pages of my fantasies come true.

The amazing personalities , the perfected moments and the hating bastards.

I laugh to myself when I think the ones who did me wrong were the ones that gave me the best gift in life. Free filled pages

Effortless romantic literature poetic pornography.

With no way to lose you can only gain.

When you stop and think of your life as a movie , you thrive to make an ending that will leave all speechless,hopeful and inspired.

This is my life , these are my dreams and this will be my legacy.

“I touched her leg… And death smiled”

2015 is the year I can’t stop to look back even if I wanted to.

The human eyes aren’t made to look that far back.

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Legends are forgotten but a legacy lives forever

if asked what I thought the answer to life was…

“Each day You have to live your life with your voice playing over and over in your head… picture your new fav movie…

its not Written yet..

its not Recorded yet…

But you hear the narration voice Going on….

you let go.. you follow it … your on a ride…

Everything will always work out. Your choices are the prime Location of where your heart ends up placing your mind

These old bodies we carry are just this time around… its our minds… we travel .. we move freely… we create Worlds in which we can fly… we live forever… We understand and know everything perfectly.

Think of the world as a place where if tomorrow you were gone.. what would people say about you?

What would your legacy be?

would your words that you created in your time spent here be enough to butterFly effect someone else’s world even when your gone?

Could you be the final Block in the bridge of someones world that enables them to cross a river of thoughts?

only then will you know that you have reached the highest point in this life.

Nirvana

Don’t let anything stop you from being where you want to be.

There is nothing at all that can not be done with out a little effort or without choices.

You have what it takes.

You just need to break that fourth wall.

See California with Marlon Brando’s eyes

Influenced by cable Tv… The moment ideas turned kinky into a Holiday Joy

Placing a date on this post as to almost do the same for myself..

I take us back to a time in the late late 90s…. To a small town in bergen county nj… in a fine tuned basement.. that would match the best of them out there…

The night was young… The ideas were flowing… and the limits were set aside… and with little to no effort at all.. another page in the Vins list was created…

Back before a time where almost all forms of Entertainment and ideas came from a www link…. There was Tv… there was HBO … and a little show that was called Real sex…. this for many was the only time paying for premium Cable paid off….

You would see things and learn things from this show that you never thought were even out there… Yet at the same time you always said out loud… “Thats Just crazy”…

but you were only lying to yourself if you tried to believe that none of these things you were seeing… Appealed to you on some kind of level…

moving on to the main part of tonights story….

This was the first time in my life that i saw with my own eyes… and felt with my own hands… just how much a Fucking freak I really could be when tempted and matched up with an equal devil in crime…

The door bell rang like it had done millions of times before…. I had this way of getting ready that was almost Perfected in its own way…

I would always make sure that everything was Perfectly set to a pace that would take little to no Effort on anyones part.. to just be able to sit back and Enjoy … the time… the moment… each other…

I was dating this amazing Girl at the time…. we all know her…. the type that back in high school was wearing baby doll Dresses … carrying lunch boxes… and was at all the local punk shows…. You would see her over and over…

the crowd of people would just disappear… all that would be left was your eyes…. staring into hers like a lust filled trance…. nothing Could remove you from that moment… and right there… I would know that  I just had to have her… but the truth was… she already had me…

Even the way she made my lips feel when i would say her name…. that was like my own personal drug… The way I would tease my ears with each phone call that she made to me… This was the world… she was Miss world… Priceless … Perfected … Heart insanity….

she would call me after getting out of work… at this point we had moved passed having to find reasons to be at the same place at the same time….

We were an item… we were more then something you could place a label on… we were the prime example of what falling in love was… but this time …

I wouldn’t just fall… this was more like a free base jump onto a spike filled pit of Cupids arrows…. and I would rush to the leap…. ahh the Goodness that comes from being young… innocent… and So willing to try it all…

Her Soft voice that was like the purest of music my ears had ever been blessed to hear… Would only be complimented by my racing heart as I would watch in delight as my caller ID would light up.. showing me it was her calling… and it was my heart answering…

“hey” … its such a simple thing… that would set Fire to my heart… and Run electronic thunder through my mind… this was the purest and more intense form of mental Stimulation that i till this day have ever seen.. and felt..

It was almost like a game… Pretend that you weren’t excited… Looking back now i almost could kick myself Directly into the balls when I think that I wish I could have let her know even just a few more times…

how happy i was to receive that call…. that voice… the music of my heart pounding like the beat of a marching bands Drums at a climatic end..

she would go on to ask me what i was doing…. little did she know… I had hours before set up everything to be perfect… the only thing that was missing from my world now .. was her touch… her eyes…

her heart pounding against mine… lights off…. Tv Flicker filling the walls of endless teenage angst posters that were still Around ….

The winter was not kind that year.. the windows of the basement were filled up to the top with The falling snow that had given to the slanted roof tops on the house….

it was amazing.. you could open the window, place a bottle of soda or in my case… a few bottles of snapple… into the snow.. and it was like your own wine cellar, we didn’t drink back then… we never needed to

That night the snow was Slamming down on the earth like a crash of thunder on a perfect summer night storm…

but everything was white… perfected… and wrapped into a package of pre christmas jitters that are priceless in my mind to this day…

She would be there soon.. I knew the time was coming and that was enough to make it hard to sit around… I would chain smoke cigarettes while skipping ahead songs at a time On my favorite cds… its not that i didn’t like what was on … its that My sense’s were on overload… and I was trying to overdose…

ash trays placed in a perfect diamond shape….. The Sofa pillows placed in such a manor that would leave no choice but to be comfortable when the time came to settle down…

The Windows slightly Cracked … just enough to Make it Could enough where cuddling would be a needed commodity.

There is something about the female body when its cold that feels amazing against your warm hands…. its almost like you Can feel each and Ever single tiny Hair and goosebumps with such amplified sensation. The female body to me has always been the perfect drug.. and with an addictive personality , Through the years I’ve learned to Forgive myself For certain actions that might have been better though Through…

as we sat there watching the movie choice the night… she seemed so priceless… So Perfect… under the 3 layers of clothes… i knew was her soft… warm body… my mind couldn’t stop thinking about it for more then a few minutes at a time… with A.D.D this was like a blessing…. as I could constantly Plan my Next move of attack… and a battle that both of us wanted to be part of…

“Oh…. I almost forgot… I got us ice cream…”

She laughed at the thought that maybe i was joking… I mean… of course hot chocolate or something of that nature would have been better off .. since after all it was about 25 degrees outside and snowing…

“Really?” she chuckled as I got up from our comfortable position we had come to lay in… i was laying on my back.. with her head on my chest…

Things couldn’t be better… but of course they could always be upgraded… there was after all mint chocolate chip ice cream.. ben and jerry’s of course…

just a few feet away in the freezer… though.. i guess looking back on it… I could have only made this story better by utilizing my window method for the ice cream like i had done for the Snapple..

I got up slowly enough to take note of her eyes as they followed me around the room in the dark like stalking animal does to its prey…. This turned my mind into a wonder land of lustful sinful wishful games…

as we were eating our ice cream.. I always took thrill in taking little spoon fulls and slowly bringing it to her lips… I just loved watching her Tongue slowly lick the leftover melted ice cream of her lips… at times I couldn’t fight the urge myself to take a quick Taste my slowly kissing her in-between…

As we sat there like perfect examples of life at its finest and fullest… we were changing channels… a mixture of christmas is coming type commercials and some christmas Specials of well known sitcoms polluted the airwaves… back then You had about 50 channels…

if you were lucky.. and all of them had nothing on… Then we hit HBO… and it was Real sex… now this was something that might be the perfect compliment to a Sold winter snow storm Filled night…

The topic of the show that night had to do with A fetish that some people have that involved food… It was actually rather gross and not appealing at all… but it was more so the captivating Look that we both had Staring into the Tube… Of course we didn’t need anything to spark our lustful interest in our minds… as we were both I’m sure looking forward to consuming each other with our touch and lips… but this night something else happened…

as We Both sat there Cracking jokes about what we were seeing on this HBO show… we decided that Hot chocolate would be the perfect thing to add into this mix of ice cream and Mental wonderings… So i once again got up and placed the hot chocolate into the micro wave…

like everything else that i always have done and still do in my life… I over did it… and Cooked the small glass jar to a point where you could watch as smoke was Rising into the Cold air in the room.

We both laughed when i said “yeah this on your body would result in me having sex with freddy krugger” we both laughed… but in that moment.. I knew that she was thinking the same thing that i was thinking… “but if it was to cool down a little bit…”

I dont recall how it happen.. where it started … but What started as a giggling nervous curious venture… Soon turned into both of us on the floor… naked…. rolling around in our ice cream covered bodies…. we could take turns… and ask each other how it Felt..

First with Giggles… then it would turn into what felt BETTER>…

I would tease her Lips with a tiny bit of ice cream that would slowly fall down past her lips and onto her neck…. I would feel her hands tighten around me when the cold would hit her…. and every time I would make sure to kiss her even harder…

She slowly Dropped a huge piece of melting ice cream on my chest…. I wanted to hit the ceiling.. it was Cold… but before i could even register in my mind just how cold it was…. her teeth Were digging into my neck at the perfect moment and placement… it was like taken a shot of whiskey on a cold night to warm up…

her soft tongue slowly running straight down the Middle of My chest…. To my lower stomach …. and around my hips….. before I could even catch my breath…. her cold mouth had Surprised me once again….

sometimes you become over whelmed with the feeling while making love…. While fucking…. whatever you want to call it…. and infact at times … you could do both.. and it would be just as hot.. no matter what the degrees  outside Might be.. winter or not.. This was hot and it was only getting hotter…

no longer being able to resist the urge to be the aggressor… I flipped her over from on top of me with a single motion… I felt and heard her breath leave her… She was shocked .. but not scared… in fact… this is what she wanted and had earned with her actions just a few moments before…

“oh fuck….” She slowly whispered… but it wasn’t like she said it so I could hear it.. it was the natural reaction that her body had… She needed what she was saying.. and I wasn’t going to have her ask again…

I pinned her down Against the floor… both hands above her head…. with a  firm grip to let her know this is where her hands were to stay…

My hands slowly pulling her underwear down just a few inches to let her know.. but not enough to begin to show her just what my intentions were…

Slowly taking her tongue into my mouth while stopping only to lightly bite her lower lip… there was nothing that could stop us now… not even the house coming down on top of us from the unlimited amounts of old man winters Snow storm…

For a second there as I was Running my tongue slowly around the sides of her hips… I could see her hands coming down from where  had placed them…

“uh uh” I whispered to her.. as to motion that it was not time to move them yet…. but before I could be more persistent… her small soft hands were firmly placed around her breast… She was enjoying this as much as she could… and I wasn’t about to stop her…

nor was she going to stop me from taking this to the next level…. Remember the hot chocolate that I over did myself in the microwave with… There it was… The Smoke had died down.. but it wasn’t cooled down by any means….

“oh shit” i heard her whisper to her self…. I thought about it for a second… maybe this was too much… but then again… if it was .. she would have let me know… and with how Connected we were… I would have known…

and besides there was no confusion to be met here… as I watched her hand slowly slide into her now half removed panties…. Slowly watching me while pressuring her self to the thought of what would come next… (all pun intended)

I slowly poured a little bit at first of the hot chocolate… I was still worried that it was too hot… but the moment that it hit her skin…. it was a matter of seconds before it was her hands that were smearing it all over her Naked body… Perfected madness….. I couldn’t stop myself from licking her fingers clean while She Slowly rubbed the rest of the chocolate from her stomach onto her tits…

Sucking her nipples slowly… while the chocolate would harden after being Exposed to the cold air… that just meant… pour more…

This time i slowly poured a lot more on to her tits…. I could have came right there… the look in her eyes… the way that she was telling me such Dirty thoughts with out a Single word… I was in love in so many ways.. that I could have died a million Deaths in that very moment.. and never Stopped once to look back…

With each drop of hot chocolate hitting her body,.. she would dig her nails deep into my skin…. it didn’t hurt… I wanted more…. if it was up to me.. I would let her maul me to death in this moment… This was the peak of visual nirvana…. The senses overloading with an Explosion of Love mixed with lustful kinky thoughts… physical actions of the dirtiest thoughts you have ever had….

I can’t tell you how long This all lasted that night… I cant recall just how many times she would cum from my tongue … but i can tell you that i ate enough chocolate that night to turn me into a fat kid again….. I couldn’t get enough….

When we were done… we sat there….. silent at first while we both tried to catch  our breathes…

Silently staring up at the glow in the dark star covered ceiling of that basement… the cold are Rushing in for the window… as in our moment we had failed to see the Snowing had turned into a blizzard…. she wasn’t going anywhere that night… and she didn’t have to…

We laughed when we knew there was no way to explain This scene of ice cream and hot chocolate to anyone… it was everywhere…

that night we snuck into the shower together … and I like to say that the sight of the left overs we helped each other clean off our bodies… was the reason we ended up having sex in the shower for hours on end….But the truth was that we had broke that fourth wall… we left all morals… all rules… all worries behind… and let out selfs truly be ourselves…

That basement Is long gone… and I no longer eat mint ice cream because it never tasted the same to me after she was gone… but the memories are enough for me to always give a second look and a funny little grin to myself in the food store when I pass by the Hot chocolate isle…

Thank you…. Maybe you will never read this… but I know that you don’t need to… cause you lived it.

You have truly made the pages of my Fantasies perfected

Merry Christmas and Happy new years

Certain Things are sometimes Uncertain

The Broken sticks of light that fill the winter induced room…

Soft blankets that have no way to tell just how warm they can keep everything.

Let it snow… let it snow…

The hypnotic steam Rising from the freshly heated cups of hot chocolate…

Slowly watching your fire filled eyes reflect the beauty you have inside…

Christmas is here… Time of the year… Broken with fear…

Slowly tasting the Warm melted marshmallows of her warm gentle lips…

The tip of her nose still cold as a gentle reminder to just how much Warmer Things could be…

Her perfected Hands wrapped around an Over sized coffee Cup…

as i fall into Trance while letting my mind run Free with the thoughts of keeping her warm on this unexpected cold night…

Slowly binding my Hands through her hair… like rare Priceless Silk…

The fire shining off her eyes…. as we connect at the the moment we both sit silently Sipping away…

Silent night… Holy night…. The mood is good… The mood is good..

No thoughts needed as she slowly places her head on my shoulder… in that very moment.. words are nothing… They aren’t needed… Two hearts connected communicate better in silence…

She finally breaks the silence… asking how long I think the Fire will burn….

its in that moment that my mind Takes over… forgets topics… Forgets limits…

“Somethings are made to last forever” I tell her…

“Is that a promise?”  She replies…

“Its My purpose..” I gentle speak…

as we Find ourselves only getting closer and closer… in that moment where you heart Is Racing like Pure fire on its own..

The Sounds of Crackling Wood only second best now to the quite yet over powering sounds of our lips gently connecting…

Her lips Slightly Sticky from the melted Sugar magical marshmallows that only melt away even faster with the burning of our lust…

She Slowly places her Cup on the ground next to us… and with the same Perfecting balance , slowly climbs on top of me….

her lips barely Holding a small perfectly shaped marshmallow  in place while she Leans in for another kiss…. There is something about knowing when a night is young.. but there is so much more to knowing when the night is Yours…

She slowly pushes me down against the wooden floor that only moments before were cold with the firm touch of old man winters magic… Now there was nothing that could cool us down… Nothing that would be avoided in touching…

as her Tight warm body begins to press against mine… I think to myself … in this very moment… I have perfected life in a way that only a select few have know… in this moment… I am she.. as she is me… and we are both Together…

Placing Both hands behind me to give myself just enough leverage To let her pull the shoulders down on my flannel…. The blanket is the last thing that we are thinking about… and the first thing that is no longer needed…

the gentle cold breeze that passes quickly and quietly over my exposed skin…. doesn’t have the chance to let my mind remember this cold winter night…

Before I can think anything… her warm bare breast are firmly being pressed against my Naked Chest… In this moment… God can kill me… because i have seen Everything this world has to offer… I’m spoiled and loving it…

trying to contain the urge of Letting an almost animalistic nature take over and take her in so many ways…

her hair perfectly falling in such a way that i beg to differ on if she has control over that as well as she does over me…

My hands gently gliding up her sides… feeling the Effect of Goose bumps that now cover her tight Perfected sexual madness of a body… around her hips… Up her sides….over her shoulders… up the sides of her neck… and gently using my fingers to move her hair behind her ears…

The instant our eyes connect… its like throwing paper on a fire.. intense… and burning desire… our passionately Locked lips know nothing about Speaking… but everything about communicating in their own ways…

She slowly reaches for the near by blanket that only moments before… moments before its purpose was to cover all that was cold.. but now its mission was to entrap the heat that we create..

My lips addicted to the softness of her skin… feeling every Single moment that brings her the chills… Shooting up and down her body…. and each time only complimenting it with more reason to repeat and repeat and repeat…

“I want you” i tell her…..

But i didn’t have to speak a word… our bodies… had been talking all along…. and without a Single moment of chatter… they were on the same page… on the same note…. on the same mission…

“im all yours” she claims… with almost the look of desperation in her eyes… desperate to give her body the thing that her mind was now Craving more then the air we breath…

her hips firmly pressing against mine…. Our hearts beating like the marching band of drums….

we are living a White christmas… we are dreaming a white christmas…

Perfected madness never has to Fall in season… The weather always lends a Reason…

but on this night… we perfected the ultimate Christmas gift…

Freedom…LustFull… Love filled … Freedom…

She chuckled with her head against my chest moments later…. As she noticed the Spilt Cup of hot chocolate…

“Would you like me to make us some more?” She asked…

“Of course I would love some seconds..” I said….

We loved….We enjoy….We are…. There for we can imagine anything and Accomplish The most Perfected things with just a mind and a Dream lived on this night.

Thank you

You came and Filled these pages of My Fantasies

The ultimate gift

The Mind of The heart

It always seems to make more sense when attempting to look back on this life..

The moments that we have created for ourselves are our history in time.

Each one of us have a meaning.. Each one of us must understand the role we play in this life.

It might something that makes sense… other times its something that you will never know..

you can be the brick in your own wall… or you can be the foundation to another persons building.

Steps that are equal in this world… are the only things that separate us from the rest of the world.

I remember seeing the snow fall as a child… and Thinking to myself I wished I could just stare for days on end… Watching everything get covered up…

Watching how in the silence of the night… Snow would make its way into Every little area that we see each day… and never stop to think about..

Everything would be covered in white… as if the gods had placed the world and everything in it.. on Pause…

The Mind of the heart… the beating drum of our Souls… We are Perfected in every way..

Lend your ears… open your mouths.. and extend your hands…. Create the perfect history that you will be proud to look back on… and a legacy that will never be forgotten..

we are the ones that have learned to walk straight up… The ones that didn’t settle to Crawl when the world had so much more for us to walk on..

In this place… this place that can be Created by no other then you and me… We will perfect this madness and learn to Laugh all the way home.

The Mind of the heart…. The beating drum of our Souls … We have Perfected madness in every way..

Today We learn to Fly