Letters in the inbox of Vins list

I get great emails from time to time about This Blog.

And i have to say I enjoy them all

but just this morning I got an email that was inspired by this blog…

and I thought i would post it here for all of you to read.

its a nice poem and i think you will all enjoy it as its in the same taste of the Vins list

“Amazing blazin the stars are in the sky tonight I feel I can’t explain it but I know that it’s reality. The visions clear so in other words I have clarity. I’m well aware of the spell that you castin over me.

My eyes are not open but somehow I still manage to see. I’m lookin thru you like I knew I would  you’re transparency is like lookin into the universe if I could and it sparkles and it darkens into something worse.

It’s like you don’t even mean it, it’s like a curse. Even worse u got this power over me your love is fucking blinding makin it hard for me to see. I’m wishing I could erase the pain of yesterday hopin for a better day get down on my knees and pray.

But god is never listenin and the sky keeps glistenin like a thousand crystals magic eight ball are u listening? I gotta figure out a way to end all this insanity I gotta get closer to u in order to gain sanity. Your poison to my life he says but I don’t think I mean to be I’m going crazy I’m too far away I gotta get u close to me.

I need your hands to numb the hurt I need ur lips to ease my pain. I need these tears to wash away the past like the most amazing rain. Reach out for u inside my dreams but I can never grasp ur hand I’m holding onto a broken dream watching hourglasses run out of sand. ”

“JBL” 2015

-Something in the way –

When I sit back and think about all the times that I was right there…

I learn to look back not only all the times that my heart pumped you through my veins..

There was the moments that i think I will never be able to say are not a part of who i am.

I see the world as a place that is my playground… A place where almost anything you set your mind to you can get.

Nothing is ever out of grasp.. and nothing is ever out of reach…

its only about how Far you want to Stretch your arms in order to grab it.

I have always wanted the best for myself… I have never allowed myself to second Guess The reasons why I Crave what I want..

A smile… A face… That warm touch that you feel in the middle of the night when you awaken to the site of your very Dreams come true, Sleeping right next to you..

The Constant laughter… The jokes… the memories in the making… The memories that were already made..

I think about the first Kisses that started anything and Everything.. The very Moment that I let someone see in them For the first time .. Just what a perfect gem They really are…

Nothing ever stops me when I’m feeling like this… Nothing can ever get in the way of my feelings.. my heart… My dreams.. My mind…. My love…

I would climb a million Mountains… I would Cross over every inch of land that this world has in store for you…

There is never a moment where I think anything else besides the happiness that comes to my life when I see your face… I touch your warm skin… I hold your chest against mine….

Slowly Letting myself Drift into a deep sleep to the Beat of our love radiating inside your self… like it has been forever inside of mine..

The very moment I was aware that you existed… Was the very Moment that I wished on each star that would be over my head Each lonely night that you weren’t in my life…. My world..

There is real love out there.. the kind that looks like all the movies that made you sigh when comfortable on your bed watching..

All the things that have been painted as romantic… amazing… and almost Unbelievable …

Are right here waiting for You to take them up on the Offer and the chance…

I’m looking to the sky to save me… Im looking for a sign of life …

Im looking for something that will let me never look back… and when i happen to look back…

I want to see you looking back at me to see if I’m looking at you…

Each time I have ever said goodbye… I have hated those words more then anything…

because I feel that i only have just now started to say hello… and I want to introduce myself to you over and over and all day and all night..

You are a gift in my life.. and you need to see that there is nothing more needed to give me a sign of life.. Then just your very existence.. .

They sat on their wall… watching the sun Come up… Wondering where they were going… wondering how they would get there… Wondering how on earth this had FINALLY Happened….

A perfect love Story that is Raised from the ashes of others wars…

A perfect attempt at trying to Find that very Reason we all tried the first time…

its not that you or i have failed in past attempts…

its more so that you can only learn by trying something at least once…

and Im the kind of man that does something once… Then Perfects it the second time around… and makes sure to never Fail again.

I have Everything in my tool box To Fix even the broken ..

But nothing here is broken… Maybe just the gates of fate need to be oiled and made to open with ease again..

But the truth is … There is nothing here that I can’t do when your the tools I use to Craft the very object We call our hearts.

Her Face is The place that I find my reflection in her eyes…

her body is the place that i find my heart beating against..

and her hands are the very thing that I want to hold till its my time to say goodbye.

My dreams came true (and I didn’t even have to sleep)

There isn’t a single moment in which one can sit back and not notice his very Dreams taking place all around him.

A moment in life where you stop and almost have to catch your thoughts because it almost seems too good to be True..

life has its moments where in one heart beat your perfect and in the next You feel as if you have lost all chance at knowing how to fly.

life is the endless chapter’ed book that seems to always have enough blank pages for never ending plots and twists..

with a book binding that is stronger then the back bone of the most spineless cowards..

I slowly let myself Down from the anti trust bubble from which I had placed not only my head.. but also my heart….

There she was… With a smile that could only be seen at the gates of heaven on a day of judgement…

her eyes were like the steady beam of light Emitting From a Light tower , that not even the most foggy of nights could hide..

her touch was like the warmness of knowing that everything would be ok.. and that you finally set your feet on Dry land after being washed shore from the sea of tears you once accepted as your Drowning hole.

when all the pieces fit and yet you can’t seem to complete a puzzle.. its because Your writing the story as you go… your creating the best chapters as they happen..

You suddenly step back and see your self in a way that you never thought could be.. You know what you are… you know what you want and you know what you can do… its a matter of doing it… seeing it… and grasping your hands on your very Dreams as they float by you in scattered pieces….

There was never a day that would go by where i would think about My dream coming true… Be it the moment that it first showed its face to me on a late night conversation that lasted into the Early hours of Dawn…

i could have showed up… I could have taken the chance…. But faith has a strange way of playing its game of chess..

The sounds of her laughter that echo through my ears like the most amazing piece of music i have ever heard…

I Could spend a life time just staring at her lips as they move while forming the Very words that I exist to hear…

Nothing else Matters because once I have made a choice… its the only thing that i know.. the only thing that I breath and the only thing that i learn to not fear and walk away from.

Perfected Madness…. Beautiful little deaths…. Cold sheets and too much money spent on late night gas stations…

we are the reason that we smile… we are the reason that we breath better at night with the fan on… We are the reasons we attempt to No longer seek reasons at all.

And you… You are the reason that I can sit here right now and say that i now have everything i need to be able to say that my dreams have come true..

and I didn’t even need to goto sleep for them to happen.

PIkuChueILY